So its not enough that the universe has been pooping on me, but tonight, as a quick thunderstorm came through, I decided I wanted to sit and watch the storm outside. And I was dry for a while, until a huge gust of wind came, and blew so much rain onto me I was drenched. When I walked inside, my husband started laughing and said that's what I get for sitting outside--the universe sneezed on me.
but like i told my husband, we've had so much bad stuff happen in the last year and a half that I can't take it anymore. I don't have any more tears to cry. So my husband said maybe that was nature's way of giving me more tears to cry. Probably....but I would like a happy ending instead.
While originally written to document the fears and worries during a pregnancy after a 2nd trimester loss, it has evolved after having back to back losses (at 21w) to a way of expressing my feelings. It is an outlet, to express my thoughts where I don't feel comfortable saying anywhere else. This is my journey through the worse part of the storm, where is it as black as night, and you can't see in front of you. You just have to have faith that the storm will pass and the rainbow will appear.
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